How keratoconus complicated my life for the past 25 years


Dear Keratoconus: You have complicated my life for about 25 years. Can't say for sure because for so long I went undiagnosed. I have worn hard lens, gas perm lens, soft lens, piggy back lenses and now scleral. Glasses are no longer an option to give my eyes a rest after 15+ hours of wearing sclerals a day.

You have made driving a challenge. Night driving, unless for a short distance where I know the roads, has been over since the age of 50. That has brought about anxiety issues.

You have taken away my love of reading. Sure I use glasses for reading but squinting when reading a book is not enjoyable.

You have taken away my ability to be accurate at work, from typing numbers to reading emails and all other computer work. I catch so many mistakes because of my inability to see clearly.

You gave me cataracts at the age of 45, and I had to function with one eye each time for 6 month period before and after surgery. And then a few years later I needed Yag capsulotomy.

You gave me floaters. You've made my eyes so sensitive to light, sunglasses are always a must.

You make me use a 10-15X mirror to put on makeup so I don't leave the house looking like a clown. Mascara has never been a part of that because I don't dare take a chance a flick of it gets in my eye.

You have made scleral lenses my best option. They are very expensive, (which insurance does not cover) I need special plungers, solutions and cleaners to take care of them, and need to have those supplies with me at all times.

Sue Harley @SueHarley5I recently was having a bad "gooping" day and took out the lens to feel rough edges. Taking a magnifying glass I could see 2 chips at edge of lens. Three months old and another $500. Now this happened to the left lens.

You have taken so from me at such a young age. Multiple times everyday I am am reminded in some way or another that I am dealing with keratoconus.

I know there are so many other diseases that are worse than keratoconus, I realize that, but I don't think many people are even aware of this disease and what it robs us of.

Sue Harley @SueHarley5

6 comments:

  1. Sounds like it could've been written by me. I was diagnosed in my mid-twenties. I'm 62 now. I've also had two cataract operations. I don't drive at night and only in familiar areas during the day. I only wear mascara on holidays or special occasions. I wear a RGP lens on one eye and a scleral on the other. Even with the lenses, I can only see well enough to read out of one eye, but that hasn't stopped me from reading. To replace my scleral is about $650. I've worn contacts of one kind of another since age 19, and started wearing glasses in the second grade. My job involved working with numbers on a computer all day for the County Treasurer's Office. Fortunately, I was able to make it to retirement after 37 years of service (started right out of high school and went to college night)

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    1. Hi Elaine, Any keratoconus patient could share their experiences on this blog. if you would like to participate, please send your article and photos to our email: [email protected]

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  2. Living with KC is, simply putting, a curse. But I always remind myself that it could have been far worse. I have no ambition, to be honest it's because of KC. I try to understand my limitation and make myself happy with as much as I can get. But still sometimes it's much harder to deal with. I know you have been suffering for more than my age, but still don't lose hope. Live your life as much as you can because that's what GOD planned for us. We can't change that, might as well enjoy it. And living with frustration is no fun. I like to believe a quote I modified, " Whatever doesn't kill you makes you stronger", even if that may not be true. Good luck

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  3. Now someone dare to say "thank God anyway"
    because fuck him

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  4. I was diagnosed at the age of 14, this too sounds like it could've been written by me! I'm 31 now and don't dare drive at night in unfamiliar areas causing me major anxiety. Driving in the rain at night is an absolute no no! The only thing I have is glasses and my right eye at its best with glasses is 20/200 and my left eye was 20/40 that was about 5 years ago. I don't have insurance so haven't been able to go to any kind of dr. Keratoconus has definitely made things a lot harder on me. I have 3 young children that I can't take to the beach alone because once they're in the water I can't tell which kid is mine it's horrible not being able to enjoy the simple things with them. Another big one for me is coloring, I found out about 2 years ago that I can no longer "color in the lines". I got as close as I could and was trying to color with my son and could not stay in the lines, it was devestating! Cleaning is also a task, I'm always missing the smallest things that I can't see but it's very noticeable to others. Makeup is another no bc I can't see what I'm doing. I really wish there was something I could do!

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  5. This felt like you were telling my story. I was diagnosed when I was 19 y/o. Had 2 corneal transplants of which the last one in the same eye was placed incorrectly. I now have 2 small cataracts in both eyes. I am now wearing scleral contact lens in my left eye, soon I will have one for the right eye. The lens works good but there a few steps I have to take. Having keratoconus has caused me to live in a very narrow lane in life. I am at times afraid to do things. I did not realize how much power I gave to Keratoconus.

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